Wednesday, May 03, 2006


God is amazing. Did you know that? He truly is. He's always there, always listening, always ready to pick us up when we fall. Have you ever experienced this actual feeling of being lighter, of having a weight lifted off your shoulders? I have. I did last night. I finally sat down with God and gave up my problems. It doesn't mean that my life will now be perfect (that's not possible), but I feel SO MUCH BETTER. It's carried on to today. If I let it, it will continue throughout my whole life. The problem is me getting in the way of God. But this time I have stepped aside and told Him to take control. All day I just keep thinking about finally giving all my issues to God, and I just feel...happy. Last week it was all sadness. That sadness is gone. It's just crazy; I love God! I've been feeling this hole in my heart since last week, and I realized that I was trying to fill it up with something that is inadequate. Only God can take up that space; only God belongs there. It's great to know that He is glad that He is now residing there. I mean, don't get me wrong: I am a Christian and have been since July 30, 1998. But I walked away from God, step by lonely step. Last night I RAN back. I thank God I'm back in His arms...again. In no way does this mean that I'll never get away from God again, because that is an almost inevitable possibility. I do screw up. Constantly. But I let those mistakes get between us. I tried to be too strong and take care of my own problems. Now God has them, and I don't plan on taking them back anytime soon; I forgot how good it felt when God is in charge. When I admit that I am weak and let go of what I can't handle, God takes over and shows His strength.

2 Corinthians 13:4 -- "For to be sure, [Jesus] was crucified in weakness, yet He lives by God's power. Likewise, we are weak in Him, yet by God's power we will live with Him to serve you."

1 comment:

  1. Richard12:26 AM

    it can feel so liberating to just relax and know that God will care for you. I totally understand where you are coming from.